2dae wasnt so gd.. in sch it is great! bt other dan dat.. my mind juz kip tinkin abt hm...

slpt v. late ytd coz was ryin to tink designs for da few pieces of papers as my sis helpin to decorate da rest.. ended up.. i was too tired.. i slpt @ 2... den went to bed @ 3.. den woke up @ 5.30!! it is so late lahx.. din do much.. haf to anihow do.. so sry to those whose sheet is i design de..

so so.. i rshed lk mad to da busstop bhind coz i noe i m goin to miss my bus.. unless i run to da second bus stop.. n i made it!! took da regular 133.. =) w my hair nt tied.. din look @ mirror at how i look w jeans n clas stee... -.-

had celebration 2dae.. =) mrs so sae sketchbk more meaningful!!! =) of coz.. spent lots of time doin it..

*ouch*

aniwae.. happy teachers' day!!! =)

thx to mrss.. =) my CT tutor!!!

aniwae.. saw a pawn receipt juz now.. even tho i m late.. i still go look @ it.. hmmm.. i guess da cycle is here once again.. i dun wish to c it again. bt i guess i still c it.. i feel so helpless.. i cldnt help my family by workin.. da only ting i can do is study.. n mayb spend less.. which is da exact opp of wat i m doin.. juz went kbox.. -.-

bt act.. i m glad iwent kbox! i feel more relaxed.. @ lesat i din tink of it thruout da few hrs.. =)

i feel lk cryin.

now in mel's hse again. aft so so so so so long. =)

hammy still so cute!!! so sweet~~! lolx...

n guess wat? 11 of us here!!! =D i luv dem!!!

so so.. we r here to do tchers' day presents + cookies!!!

was bz tryin to do wat i haf to do few days ago.. =P so while dey bakin cookies i m desperately tryin to finish it.. =)

da cookies taste nice!!! v. sweet...

lalala.

oh.. 2dae gp paper.. paper 1 is better dan paper 2.. paper 1 essay qn is "the worst of all times" is this blah blah blahx... gt pple do da same qn worx!! i'm nt da only one.. =) heex...

den paper 2 is horrible. i even fall aslp.. nt my fault it is non-aircon rm.. =P

so so.. my AQ is gone.. hope my summary can rescue mi.. nahx.. lolx..

i wan drink martini! lolx.. elmo sae le now i feel lk drinkin...

go finsih my tchers' day present.. tata. =)

2dae is prelim's eve.. takin gp tmr.. doesnt feel lk it... -.- no idea... goin to study again tho.. go flip thru my super thick gp file.. =)

One Summer's Day-Jo Hisaishi
v. sad music.. da one u heard in on tv for President's Star Charity....

比爱更爱。
seems to b a v. nice song.. heard it in 我猜.. =)

已经忘了要说什么。

humans r so amazing... i guess i m da worst.

it hurts. it continues to hurt.

hope 阿娇 will b fine soon... *prays*

tired.

i hope i wont b irritated/upset tmr.

gd luck for those takin prelims tmr.. =)

jia you!

oh.. mr brown's podcast on pluto v. v. v. funny.. hmmm.. mayb i shld upload it into my mp3 n let u guys hear it tmr.. =)

《比爱更爱》
望着窗外
她拥抱我入怀
吻着她
我确定我爱她
在呼吸一刹
那她身体的香塞满我胸膛
也压垮我所有伪装
臣服了她
可是你才能让我爱到
却不能永远在一起
离开你再把谁抱紧
比伤更伤的心
也都会留下缝隙
只有你在我心里的你
我最痛最爱的秘密
我太想你
我太爱你
曾拥有你
关上了窗
心飞到你身旁
越想放
越放回到心上
对你曾说的话
换作承诺她说得我心慌
当自己被自己模仿
这算惩罚
我曾答应你
分手后绝不放弃爱情
她让我实现
我对你的约定
却失去你

=)

i m sick. ='(

flu. now havin headache. juz took a panadol. so now feelin v. drowsy.. zzz. cannt. muz study GP.. -.-

dat's nt i wanted.

oh.. 2dae maths tut 6pple!! lolx.. v. nice.. =) can ask mrk qns.. lalala. i dun mind others ponnin.. =P

feel lk dyin in da mornin. regrettin tinkin so. now really feel lk dyin. so tired. zzz.

dun b surprised if i m a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

lalala. only time will tell.

dead.

nite. zzz.

i want to c u.

pluto is livin da family.. bye bye to pluto...


taken fr http://homepages.wmich.edu/~e1steven/pluto.html

had a quiet sunday.. guess coz sat was a bz one.. 2dae seems so quiet.. no sms.. no call.. so peaceful.. bt so quiet it makes mi v. unez... i guess pple r hard to please arhx?

was lookin @ neoprints i took.. saw how i evolve.. lolx.. i definitely looks nicer now.. bt sadly.. i tink i look happier den.. wat's wrong w mi? saw my v.short hair to long hair.. i suddenly miss my short hair.. mayb cuttin it aft prom? mayb... =) saw some neoprints i haf alr 4gtten.. w co... w lian.. w partner.. po4.. i suddenly miss so mani pple.. so long sicne i saw jingting.. wonder how is she?..

was lookin in my drawer.. den saw da letter..
date/time: 07 Mar 2005 12:56
choice of courses: 1 - 34S YISHUN JC (SCIENCE) (YISHUN JC)

den..
Date/ Time: 07 Mar 2005 17:14
Choice of courses: 1 - 26S NANYANG JC (SCEINCE) (NANYANG JC)
2 - YISHUN JC (SCIENCE) (YISHUN JC)

i still can rmb i sent da first one.. i went to cut hair.. i sent da other one aft i cum hm.. it's so hard to make da decision.. m i glad dat i chose idz? r u glad dat i changed my decision? r u glad knowin mi? r u glad dat i left da sch u r studin? i really dunno. life can b so tough sometimes.. till now.. i still cannt cfm wheteher i had made a correct choice or nt.. even if i had da ans.. iti sn tgoin to vchange anitin..

we r juz human.. juz human.. so dun so hard to urself.. enjoy life wile u can.. =)

i feel lk i m hollow. no soul. no nth. do i even feel? i dunno..

aniwae.. my mama looks @ my shen ming xian.. which is v. near to my i dunno how to sae.. den she sae my body isnt healthy.. great.. dat's wat i nid @ diz pt.. of ocz i noe i m nt healthy. joints hurt.. leg hurt sometimes.. chest pain sometimes..

bye.

mornin. =)

went out ytd.. for few hrs.. in da evenin. meet san n kel to buy mel's present.. den meet mel n bea bea n qiqi in swensens.. i lk dat swensens!!! =) so nice.. den da waiter v. cute! haha...

aniwae.. sry to elmo, bei, val n shar... coz i dun find it as a celebration.. n it is nt.. lolx.. we still goin out aft GP... =)

lalala. hope mel lks da present.

suddenly thot of da qn if ur lkin for a male fren changes to love aft so mani yrs.. n u r attached.. wat wil u do? hmmm... aft i tink abt it again.. i guess my ans is still da same.. i will break up w my bf even tho dat male fren dun lk mi... i dun tink i can b w someone if my love for another is greater... mayb i m juz being fair? bt mayb my bf doesnt mind? no idea. hope i wont b in such dilemna..

new phone cumin out... so nice! bt so big~ reminds mi of sony mp3.. lolx.. v. nice too.. =)

lalala. happy 18th birthday to mel~~~ lolx.. again... =P lalala. goin out w kel n san.. since dey dun haf SoT.. n i dyin to shop... can imagine i shop for lk 2hrs in amk central?! dat desperate to go out n walk walk... so find two hu dun mind shoppin w mi!!! i wan go kinokuniya.. lalala. i wan buy files!!! =) i feel lk buyin a softtoy~~ -.-

hmmm... nth much to blog.. tata.

i wan eat duck rice!!!

忘了何时突然觉得自己改变了不少，不对，应该是成长了不少。

不再像以前那么的幼稚。还记得小时候，跟朋友闹翻。就只因为，我不喜欢我的好朋友有另一个好朋友。我妒嫉。我讨厌。其图像破坏他们。结果呢？伤的最深的是自己，影响的就只有自己。哭了无数次，至今对朋友还是隔个墙，保护着自己的强。对任何事表现得无所谓、不关我的事。不想再依赖人吧。可是却开始害怕人。那时变了很多、很多。不在笑、不怎么说话。至今如此。围着我的四堵墙，时间越久，墙就越来越高。

长大了。不再连夜赶功课。不怎么再抱佛脚。为自己未来而付出。

学聪明了。害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。学会了。小人要多多提防。人不可貌相。我们都只是很表面的。省不可测。

长大了，知道什么该做、什么该施舍、什么该坚持。对人处事也好多了。

大家都一样的恐怖。

人人为己，天诛地灭。

怀念以前单纯的日子。

可是在现今的日子，我宁愿现在的我，最少不用像个白痴，被欺负也不懂。

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friday! hmmm.. let mi give mel mel an early bdae wish... happy 18th birthday to melissa!!!! =)

ytd was thursday! i 4gt wat happened.. =P oh.. went study w san n wei.. few of those i luv most! =) heex... so so.. da J1s r so irritatin!! kip tokkin n tokkin.. i gt prelims okiex?! ahhhhhh!

settled tchers' day present!! =) so happy!!! heex.. i hope everyone cums on thurs.. den all wear class tee!!! yeah!!! lalala.

2dae bio test is so dead.. likely i will fail.. bt stil hope i can pass.. c my crappin correct anot.. hope so. *prays* =)

dere's sth else i wanted to blog.. bt den.. dun rmb le.. damn. nvm..

o.. energy on yu le bai fen bai!!! repeat!! so i wont b slpin.. so can wish mel mel happy bdae! =D

hmmm.. go surf web. cum back ltr if i haf more tigns to blog.

oh.. so petty!!! she arhx.. omg!!! -.-

i luv ms darrell!! so cute!!! =)

lalala.

i juz wan to b a kid, so i can cry over spilled milk.

my another blog title.. previous one.. changed it le.. =)

detailed description of my blur life.

nice? =)

love,
ling.

decided to buy diz phone! song ecrisson Z550i!!! =) shld b.. will start savin $$ for it.. =) comments?

从新开始。

不想再装作不在乎。
不想再装作无所谓。

想要从头再来。

想要有个更好的人生。
不想再模模糊糊过了。

不是为了谁。
可能是刚刚吃的雪糕。

我要好好过。
我要努力的读书。

从今天开始，
从这一秒开始，
我希望能过比较快乐的日子。

比较开朗的日子。
不想再闷了。

更幸福的日子将会到来。
我相信。

我坚信。
只要有努力，
一定会要成果。

只要我不放弃。

=)

小天。

no monday blues. =)

gt 44/50 for maths! mrk act gave mi 3marks... coz i was wrong @ da previous part den @ dalast part i did it correctly so he gave mi da marks... so shld haf 41 instead.. =)

aniwae.. went to pasa malam ytd w my sisters.. =) my sis was buyin da muah chee.. gt 2sizes: xiao $1 da $1.50.. so my sis told da auntie "muah chee yi kuai." den i started laughin.. coz she saeshe wan yi kuai muah chee only.. lolx.. den da person cut finish le gif my sister.. i ask my sis to complain " i said i wan yi kuai only! lolx.. den go c cctv.." =P

anibody wan pei mi study tmr? i wan study nobody study.. -.-

go study maths test le.

back on friday.

i swear diz time.

72days to As.

happy first month anniversary to eunice! tho i doubt she will read it.. =P

lalala. went ot pasa malam in da aftnn w lian.. went to pasa malam ytd nite w my family. saw da bag bea bea wan.. lolx.. tink it is wat she wan lahx.. =P aniwae... so walk walk.. she bot da ting she nid.. den i bot my food... den coz she gt so much time to spend [gab still ridin his bicycle hm i tink..] so she walk mi hm~ lalala. i lk pple to walk mi hm... *hint hint* lolx.. bt @ times wen it is v. late i rather walk my frenz hm.. to ensure dey r safe n sound.. =P

oh. i luv Ramily burger! beef one!! yummy. =D

oh.. guess wat i dreamt last nite? i dreamt abt mi takin a bus.. den i din tap my ez-link card n i was found out! omg! so suay lahx.. =P

oh.. n i 4gt wat i dreamt.. bt i was tryin to wake up so i guess it was nt ani gd dream.. bt i cldnt wake up.. it's kinda 鬼压.. wen ur body refuse to listen to ur brain.. i guess i m dat tired.. i cldnt even open my eyes.. was tryin to hard to.. so ended up i tink i gave up n go back to slp.. =P

lalala.

i miss meetin kisa @ da busstop n tkae bus 2gether. i miss meetin mad @ sch busstop n walk 2gether. bt i m glad i haf momiji n hj to pei mi go sch 2gether. =)

ytd full metal alchemist was kinda sad. 2dae 最游记 ended uquite sad too. bt i tink he din die.. so okiex lahx.. =) magical girl's rate is goin so fast.. lolx.she alr captured 6seeds le! diz is da 3rd episode! isnt it fast?

Gundam seed destiny cumin to da end.. final destiny plan is cumin up.. so i guess it's over pretty soon...

so so.. no more gundam seed for mi.. soon project runway is over.. CSI season finale soon. wont watch CSI unless it is da same batch of pple.. Lost still gt a long way to go.. Ghost Whisperer juz started.. animore? hmmm.. oh.. gt 起飞... den ermz.. 我猜.. den i guess no more le.. lalala. i dun really haf much tv to watch rite? =P

mood goes down again. baaaa.

hmm.. i tink mrh will kill mi if he reads diz.. well well aniwae..

did i blog ytd? let mi go check first bfore bloggin da same stuffs... =P

okiex.. so i did blog ytd.. sumore such a long entry.. =P so diz wan will b short n sweet? =P

aniwae.. went to NUS 2dae.. for econs seminar... 3 talks in total.. first talk. .was happily listenin tho start to feel slpy.. 2nd talk.. was tryin my best to kip awake.. 3rd tok? prac tokkin to jacq... gt listen.. bt din really focus.. =P tok tok tok.. bad sushi.

den went to bugis to eat yoshinoya! juz feel lk eatin it.. =) happy happy! oh.. sry to kelly coz ended up din meet her 2dae.. bt nvm.. will make it up on mon or tues.. studyin in sch! for da whole wk! i guess.. =P mayb nt.. haha`

den aft dat took da train hm.. coz i dunno how to walk to busstop.. lazy go find.. so took mrt hm.. regretted tho.. coz i wan to sit! din sit da trip at all.. bt den luckily i took mrt.. or else i m goin to miss full metal alchemist.. aniwae.. so sad lahx! Greed died.. nt dat i luv him.. juz lk im.. hahax... he quite nice wat.. sob sob..

ohoh! was lookin @ da reflection while takin da train.. one word cum to mi. diet. i really shld start dietin.. so fat! -.- even my legs look ugly! omg.. will go run liaox.. hahax.. bo pian.. haf to lose some fats.. -.-

unpleased abt myself. hope i can b better. nicer. nahx.

will pei mama go buy dinner coz sis nt @ hm.. so long since i last pei her.. =P

dere's sth i wan sae.. bt i dun rmb.. nvm.

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rmb wat i wan to blog abt.. my libra broke.. da one hangin on my phone.. -.- da balance is off.. one side is off? which side? da nice side or da bad? da hapy or da sad? da peace or hatred? which one?

dat's all i gt. mayb i shld juz stop puttin up a strong front. my damn 自尊心. my damn 无所谓. it nv is 无所谓.

nobody beside mi. nobody behind. either too front or too back.

a leopard will nv change its spots.

lalala. friday is here. so tired. dun feel lk doin ani revision. bt will start @ 7pm. do a while. den watch tv. den do a while [or mayb go run?] den watch ghost whisperer den do a while den slp. zzz. tmr goin nus for econs seminar or tok wateva u call it.

ytd was 水灾 for mi. coz my bottle is ermx.. duno how to xplain.. aniwae.. so i was rushin to maths tut.. filled my water bottle.. den din haf da time to properly close it... den went straight to class.. mid way in da class.. wan to drink water.. den *splash!* -.- water water n more water on my clothes n into my clothes.. hahax... summore is water cooler one.. so cold!

den last period was gp tut. another incident. qiqi drank finish.. den she din close it fully too.. den put it in my bag.. den water started pourin out.. diz wasnt dat bad.. coz only my bag is wet.. a lil part only.. my notes remain intact.. so okiex~ =)

so went back hm.. studied a while.. den watch 娱乐百分百.. den stduied for lk half an hr? den zzz.. all da way to 9+.. -.- tired tired tired. suppposed to study fr 6 to 10.. ended up woke up @ 9+ den lalala. eat food. watch lost. study a bit.. den go brush my teeth n study on da bed.. while tryin to fall aslp.. =P den i slpt @ 2+? =) lalala. luckily i din study much.. it din cum out wwat i was plannin to study.. lalala.

o.. i gt 23 for econs preprelims P1! i dunno diz is gd or wat.. as in it supposed to b i din study much so i din score well.. so it will motivates mi to study harder! bt den.. -.- nt dat i m nt happy to score well.. of coz i do! i tink my tyconess is really gettin better. wahhahahahhaha`

so dead. i muz work hard. wateva.

do i haf to eat egg again? do i haf to eat mama's cooked food again? dere was a time i alwaes eat outside food.. now.. everyday eat mama's cooked food.. -.- i dun wan eat liao lahx! so sian.. almost a wk din eat outside food le.. xcludin canteen food.. -.- save mi. can i refuse to eat?

戒不掉
黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱
你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
上了瘾无可救药
没有你
会死掉

我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道
却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老

戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗
相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

戒不掉. so many tings 戒不掉. lk blahblah blah.

sry to mad coz ended po 2dae din go out.. on thrus oso coz i gt bio test 2dae.. hope can go out nxt wk.. shld b can lahx.. juz dun clash w maths P2 n ermx.. bio core P2.. shld b can lahx.. n dun clash w mel's bdae.. dat 江诗敏.

lolx.. i luv callin pple chi names now.. esp. 郭真慧. heex..

ohoh.. juz now coz san was sayin dat her neck lk being strangled lk dat.. coz v. suan.. so i was sayin a kkid ghost was handin dere.. lolx.. his hands huggin her neck n refused to go away..

lalala. i m so hunbgry bt i refused to eat.

here. to tell u sth. wont b back till fri. i promised i wont. so cum back on fri okiex? =)

stuck in da vicious cycle.

everyone dun feel lk studyin.

so gd.

=P

everyone in da same boat as mi.

tata.

well.. watched anime 2dae.. only anime i tink.. -.- i guess i m such an anime fan.


[taken fr:http://www.gundamofficial.com/]
gundam seed destiny. da person in da pic above is athrun zala. i lk him. =)
2dae was:
phase 46.
The Song of Truth
「真実の歌」
Shinjitsu no Uta
hmmm.. so da ep goes lacus went out w Meyrin, Kira n Athrun. den Meer sent a "SOS". so dey went to meet her tho everyone noe it's a trap. den dey started firin.. blah blah blah. da enemies r killed. den Mu came. so he came to bring Lacus back to ship. Kira asked Meer to go w dem. den Sarah [da enemy] haven died so she wanted to shoot Lacus who is saved by Meer n Meer died. hmmm. now i rather Meer to survive. ='( It's kinda funny dat life really doesnt go da way u wan to b. n da poor Athrun cried. sob sob. so i guess dun really make too many mistakes dat one will cost ur life. -.- i hope i haven made one dat will 'kill' mi. *prays* well.


nxt was Gensomaden Saiyuki, act was Reloaded. aniwae. in da pic was da monk. -.-


well well. so wukong cldnt fight w those "dead pple". hmmm. 受够了。now n den, some pple will受够了。n im @ dat phase now. really. dun wan study.
well. hidden love. seen thru actions. =)


hmmm. i really dun wan study. i juz feel lk slackin. buy goong vcds. watch watch watch. nt goin to do well for all da upcumin papers. i noe i wont. prelim mayb still haf hope. bt nt diz. nt now. nt nxt wk. i m so dead. im nt bei. she sae she will do badly for cumin tests n prelims n As. ya rite. badly means nv get 4As n A1 for gp. -.-

wake up. *snoozes* ltr.

ani body wna go out study pls drag mi out of da hse to study w u. i really nid to study le.

by da time i reach diz page, i alr 4gtten wat i wan to type. -.-

sth abt econs, coz i was readin econs juz now. for a while.

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

dead.

lolx. nth le. tata. take care. =)

stupid.
com shut down wen i m nearly @ da end of my list of thots.
damn.

in gp.
was brainstormin diz qn.
bloggin is merely self-indulgent exercise and serves no real purpose.
well.
i noe i m a heavy blogger.
bt self-indulgent?
nahx.
soon i m b sick of it n stop bloggin.
soon?
nahx.
wateva.
bt does bloggin serve real purpose?
it serves some purposes.
bt real?
mayb nt.
bt it still serves some purposes.
i dun care.

london "bomb".
hope no terrorist attack succeed.

fireworks.
once a yr.

zoo.
i wan to go zoo. v. badly.
any taker?
i promise i wont b some 3yr old kid hu nv go zoo bfore.
i will b 4yr old.

heels.
$37.
i wan.
money?
i dun haf.

pre-prelims.
i dun wish to study.
i still wish to score well.
i wish to wake up.

life.
nt really dat tired of life.
bt juz.
mayb nt livin is oso a gd ting.
nahx.
i probably will still in da world.
i cant cross over.

jansen.
he's da ghost for ytd's ghost whisperer.
so 帅!
died so young.
haven 18 yet.
i wan my 18th birthday.

nitemare.
shld b aftnnmare.
started v. gd.
lk some 武侠 + a bit future.
den coz we r competin.
my legs r full of needles n pins *ouch*.
it dun hurt.
bt it juz so pain in my mind.
my legs!

head.
tends to haf head ache so so so often.
heavy heavy.
damn.

tv.
v. impt to mi.
i can dun go out for tv.
i can cum hm early for tv.
i juz wan watch tv.
nice drama.
nice anime.
i luv magical girl nanoha.

ice cube.
i wan go ice cube.
hmmmm.
shld drag mel dey all w mi.
wahhahahahha.
or mayb lian dey all?
dey haven go bfore bahx.
or mad?
since i so long nv c her.
or kisa?
2dae din go out w her.
or hu?
c my mood.
baaaaaaaaaaa.

blogskin.
san sae diz blogskin seriuosly dun suit mi.
i seriously agree.
will find some more suitable dan mi den.
wen i haf da mood.

yellow duck.
i wan da yellow duck.
nxt yr.
i 4gt all abt it every single yr.
damn.

end.
nxt entry wil b far far way.
i hope.
i wan to study.
nahx.
i nid to study.
yup yup.

had a nt so bad day 2dae.. -.-

reasons to b bad:
1. din do my hw. nt a single one.
2. haf so mani tut.
3. haf to c her.
4. din wan to go to sch.

thot abt nt goin to sch.. tink tink tink.. den decided to go.. muz face da music for nt doin hw.. aniwae.. so ended up.. practically nb did gp hw. econs luckily i gt do some qns of drq. chem goin thru thermody so dun nid do ionic eqm. bio din go thru conservation. so nt dat bad. juz dat haven hand in econs essay. first time ma? nt handin up hw on time. lolx. wateva. nt my business.

tired. wan to slp. nite. shld i go find sb to pei mi watch fireworks tmr? baaaa. lazy to. shld stay @ hm den. =P

feel lk dyin @ dat instant. now? nahx. i still gt more to do. -.-

lazy to blog le. tata.

was combin my hair @ 2+.. coz goin out to watch click. aniwae.. tok abt click ltr. guess wat i found out?

my hair looks lk yixin! -.-

omg!

other dan my hair is still black n my fringe a bit shorter n i prefer to sweep it to one side.. my hair n her hair is da same!!! omg... shld haf told da person wat kinda style i wan.. lolx.. i juz sae cut short. short short short. bt still can tie up.. n dat's wat i gt! omg omg omg..

okiex.. now shld tok abt click. a v. nice movie... made mi cried a lot.. so i guess u shld treasure ur frenz, family n now.. =) i luv u! lolx.. =P n is funny.. so packed.. nt a moment of sian.. =) v. gd movie! dun noe y kel dun wan watch.. =P

lalala. i shld go back study le. =P wasted da whole long wk.. shldnt waste animore.. 4gt i gt econs essay to do!! omg. so dead.

=) i love u. love tutu cake. love my sis. =) love weixiang. lolx. dat's out of pt.. =P

ohoh.. i lk guys hu cry too.. =) so cute! guess my taste is really weird? =P wateva. @ least i can a bf? lolx. nahx.. still can find a gd guy.. =P

pai seh.. realised i 4gt to blog sth.. so here i m agian.. early in da mornin.. okiex.. shld b in da aftnn.. =P

aniwae.. cut my hair alr.. lk nv cut lahx! dunno y leix.. it alwaes seem so long aft i tied it.. -.- mayb coz i din layer.. dat muz b da reason lahx.. argh.. shld haf layered it.. -.- nvm.. it looks quite awful wen i din tie it.. -.- die die.. bad hair cut 2dae.. wateva.

aniwae.. sb gt attached. for 11mnths. i now den noe. lolx.. aniwae dat's nt da pt lahx. my sis act sae "dun envy dem. c deir bf den u will realise dun haf oso nvm." lolx.. she so evil rite? i guess i juz haven find my mr right.

lalala.

4gt to sae sth. went to s11 to haf my lunch. saw a cute guy! =) amk rarely haf cute guys. lolx. wat's more attractive is dat he act havin lunch w his mama n his sisters. i find such guy v. charming. on gd terms w his family. lk guys hu will bring his brother out too. so sweet. bt he wore long sleeves. lolx. he dun feel hot? =P still cute.

oh oh. watched 3parts of goong juz now. so watched half of ep 1. i wan to watch more! bt wont watch le. until As over? or wen shar borrowed da vcds for mi? bt den. i dun tink she will rmb. so i shld go ask for it aft As bahx. or buy it myself! sth worth watchin it over n over again. =) i luv goong! heex.

fireworks.


another fireworks. oh yarhx. elmo's skills.


grp foto! i look v. ugly. weird position. regretted changin. =P


mi, mel, elmo n san. so nice~


diz reminds mi of da sentosa pic we took. da same 3 of us. =)


since elmo dun haf a blog, let mi show off her masterpiece~


i wan a cam~! =) i wan more fotos~~ *hint hint hint*

argh. bloggin halfway den da com shut down. -.- stupid. lolx.

aniwae. was sayin. ytd wasnt a gd day. a bad day act. i dun lk. lolx.

i wan to b independent. solitary. dun wan to make da same mistake again. i m v. careful w every single step i take.

r u playin tricks on mi? m i tinkin too much? u r nt strong enough for mi to hold on. to haf faith in. i lost it v. long ago. anibody wan give mi some faith?

funny tho. sb fwd mi a sms, an encouragiin one, in da mornin. wen i feel v. low. feel so much better. made my day. =) thx u so much. how r u btw?

i dont voice out doesnt mean i wont b unhappy. better off w/o mi.

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aniwae. here's da detailed acct.

in da mornin. woke up. wore my S&K shirt. w boon. =) we wore it 2gether 2yrs ago? or izzit 3yrs ago? cant rmb. bt happy momemnts. perf in bishan park. heex. =) so so. went to sch. it's so happy new yr! luckily i luv red. or else so horrible. den bcum v. high~ den finally started fund/fun race. v. disorganised. many pple r unhappy. bt den nt my business. went to srgn. accpy chin coz i dun haf a tin. chin being so kind ask for donations da whole period. thx u! i juz cant do flag day.

came back sch. din win anitin. bt i lk da finale. i luv sing along session! =)

den went out w qi, mel, elmo, kel n chin. had my chicken n chips! some dun lk it. so sry abt it. bt nvm. nxt time we shall try da sphagetti~ da spellin seems so wrong. den slack here slack dere. finally went to espl @ ard 7pm n continue to slack. -.- finally fireworks! v. nice! glittery ones, bling bling ones, da dunno how to say one. n of coz da usual ones.. v. v. v. v. nice!! =) bt my legs v. suan. ache till cannt. oh yarhx. shar bea n san joined us. =)

den went off first w sengkang side pple. coz if i stayed dey may haf to take mrt w mi. so i may juz go first. so dey can take cab if dey wan. aniwae. i hate da bus trip. 162 is damn squeezy n long.. so i alight @ huiying's stop n took 165 instead. dat is heaven lahx! so empty. so cooling. =)

den "splat" i slpt le. lolx.. da moment i hit da bed.

went out 2dae. to mandai blah blah blah. to pay my respects to ah gong n ah ma. =)

i luv toblerone!

i tink i m goin to fall in luv w Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha

and full metal alchemist too~ act i alr fell in luv w it.. =P


post fotos ltr.

had a bad day ytd. a seriously bad day. so bad dat i juz... nvm.

i wan to b independent. solitary.

does pple get paid to xpress deir angers or unhappiness or wat? it makes mi feel so stupid nt to sae out anitin...

it feels lk. it better for dem to b w/o mi. summore i wasnt wat i thot i was. so wen i turn back. i c nobody. juz plain blank. is dat wat i wan in my life? i seriously duno.

i tried. i seriously do. dere r tings i can do n dere r tings i cant do. my attitude problem is nt goin to change. it is gettin worse i noe. bt. i dun wan to suffer da same bloody hell pain ever again. to lose faith in frenz. wait. i haven get back da faith i lost. i lost due to my stupidness. due to my possessive nature. i dun wan anibody to sae such bad tings abt mi animore. i dun wan to. i learnt it a hard way. i m nt goin to commit da same bloody mistake again. it cost mi my life. my happiness. gif mi one more time. i seriously will enter depression.

y cant i sell my painful memories?

i dun wan my heart to ache animore.

r u playin tricks on mi? i seriously duno. i seriously dun wan to noe. i seriously * * * * * * * * *. i noe i can if i wan. bt nope. u aint strong enough to make mi feel dat i wont suffer. nt u. yet.

r dere anione i can hold on to wen i feel lk collapsing? wen i feel lk dyin? wen i feel lk dere's no pt of mi stayiin in diz world? will u let mi hold on?

if i m gone oneday. i wasnt plan to. juz impulsive. i haven enjoy my life. nt yet. nt goin now.

it juz hurt to c pple goin separate ways. cant we juz go 2gether? cant we juz stay as a grp?? y cant we juz b 2gether? m i askin too much?

disppear. nobody will notice. i guess.

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aniwae.. let's tok abt sth happy.. da fireworks r nice!!! da gold glitters.. da bling bling red/pink.. da i dunno how to describe. da wonderful stuffs. i rahter b a firework. pple look @ u.. sae u beautiful. bt den. sad life arhx? life span so so so short. bt den. it worth.

lalal. i wan da fotos!!! send mi send mi send mi~

da trip hm was disastrous. i din went w tpy pple coz i tink dey wan to take cab hm. so if i stay dey nid to take mrt w mi. so i went off first w kel dey all. took 162. kana caught b/w 2 couples. -.- how nice arhx. den some idiot point middle finger @ mi. wtf lahx. i wanted to kick him bt den i may b too tired dat i c wrongly. funny to kick sb accidentally rite? so i alighted w hui ying coz da bus is damn crowded. den took 165 hm. so fast. so empty. so cooling. my love. lolx.. thx to 165. =) reached hm. damn tired. slpt. =P din even bother to do anitin. juz zzz.

goin to pay respects to my ahma ltr. ah ma~

oh yarhx. so sry to those hu din enjoy da fish n chips. i guess we wont b eatin dere again. nvm. i can try da spaghetti. =P hope da waiter is dere. lolx.

venezia ice cream alwaes make mi feels so happy. heaven.

my head feels so heavy. can i take panadols for dat? -.- dat's one ting i dun lk to take panadol.. it makes mi feel worse.. i rather haf a headache.. @ least it is juz an ache.. now my whole head feels weird.. so my whole body is collapsing soon.. n i haven bathe.. how nice.. so can eat panadol? i shld bring some tmr.. definitely i will nid it.. body collapsing.. -.-

aniwae.. had career tingy 2dae.. spent 2hrs in da hall listenin to quite an interesting talk.. bt sad to sae.. i m so tired dat i can hardly kip myself awake n listen.. =P juz so tired.. so ended up? i gt a massive headache..

so went to take a nap @ 6.. so i can wake up @ 7 to watch tv.. guess wat? i woke up @ 10pm.. -.- it's lk wat i slp normally.. so it feels os much lk a Tuesday le.. -.- i can go sch liaox.. -.- i wondered how m i goin to wake up ltr.. -.- c lahx.. feel lk eating maggi in da mornin.. -.- energy for a bz day~ lolx.. =P oh yarhx.. my shirt..

tata.

happy 41st birthday singapore! =) dunno y.. juz feel lk sayin so.. =P so old alr.. bt den i still luv it~ =)

aniwae... alr 4gtten wat i wanted to type.. -.- haix.. nvm..

wat does it feel lk if one day u woke up.. ur loved one disappeared.. n everyone dunno his/her existence? so sad it will b? losing sb.. or will u doubt if u ever met dat person? haf u gone insane or wat? juz some thots..

oh yarhx.. her bdae marks da start of my chiongin'.. for prelims.. less dan 3wks le? duno.. muz start to b hardworkin le.. i iwll.. i hope. =P i dun wan to b out of h/r..

lalala. tired. exhausted. fr? no idea. -.-

woke up @ 8+ 2dae.. went to campus 2 dere eat my sheng mian.. den aft dat went hm.. den came out to meet kel @ town.. went shoppin! kelly bot sth!! hahax... @ least she gt buy sth lahx.. =) den went hm.. i guess wen u bcum older.. goin hm alone isnt an issue animore.. being independent.. izzit gd or nt? i really dunno.. i rather haf company tho.. i m one hu lk company.. =)

so so.. den had a nap which i refused to wake up fr.. so my mama [ke lian mama] haf to go buy dinner on her own.. so sry! nobody can wake mi up.. ahahahx.. aint i strong? =P

aniwae.. so ended up woke up @ 7+ pm.. juz rite for superband! grand finals! lolx.. din haf much feelings abt da whole ting.. mi lu bing won~ okiex lorx.. lolx.. dun feel sad dun feel happy.. juz lk dat lorx.. bt den.. sam really v. talented!

才华横溢 can 迷死人... bt 迷死人 nt necessary 才华横溢.. =P

oh.. n J3 小薇 v. v. v. v. v. v. nice! =D

i luv soul's dance as usual.. lolx..

oh yarhx oh yarhx! taka dere gt one cashier/waiter v. cute! =) den ermx.. went to cine.. den dere gt cosplay.. those pple in cosplay v. v. v. v. .v cute! lolx.. cosplay pple v. nice.. =) one day i shld go join da quest oso.. heex.. wen i find sb to pei mi.. lolx.. n haf da time to do da costume..

=) tata.

da jie bot mi a locket necklace!! as an award! she really my sis sia.. noe i lk diz kinda ting.. tho i thot i iwll nv haf such ting.. i wanted it so so so so so long ago.. so cute wat! =)

aniwae i changed my blogskin.. will b diz till end of As.. i m serious. nahx.. i noe i will change. aniwae. feel so weird usin diz.. bt i juz lk it.. =P

my e tys finally cum to use.. lolx.. so still insist in bring n b a nerd is correct? lolx.. =P

aniwae.. dun wan to go hm 2dae.. so went to j8.. had my lunch.. bot my sis dinner.. =) i guess i m independent aft all.. =)

lalala. @ da rate i'm goin.. i m goin to score CCEE for my prelims.. hmm.. mayb worse dan dat.. it's nt dat i dun wan to study.. i juz dun feel lk studyin... tired of forcing myself to study... -.-

m i too concerned? m i over-reactin? i tink i m..

read in helen's blog. new day, new wk, new mnth, new yr.. u can start anew anitime.. =)

i wan to start anew. nt dat i dun lk my old self. i juz wish to b better. wish to b happier. wish to b nicer. wish to b closer to u. wish to b less paranoid. wish to b more natural. wish to b wish to b. juz let mi b v. childish awhile can?

da hectic schedule alr worn mi out. how to study?

wat else i can sae?

my life. everytin is grey. okiex.. mayb gt some r black n some r white.. bt usually.. dey r all grey.. -.-

i jzu hate her. so communicate okiex? u ownself gt do da same ting lorx.. bloody hell. as if we r nt stressed enough.

oh. i had an interestin lesson on spongebob. gary. patrick. wat is da other name? nvm.

i juz realised i dun watch ang moh cartoon.. lolx.. i watched jap.. n more jap.. n more more more jap.. =P i juz luv jap anime n comics!! ohoh.. i studdenly feel lk watcin da cat returns.. shld go watch da vcds ltr.. =) dat's one gd ting u buy da vcds.. u can watch it anitime u wan.. nahx.. stiull muz c tv wat ani show u wan watch anot..

hope yixin end up w weixiang! =) zhe xiong in bo li xie oso v. ke lian.. so sad he died in da end.. haix.. luckily it is juz a drama..

oh.. buyin my necklace tmr.. heck.. even no money to buy food i oso wan buy my necklace.. cant believe i act broek it! damn. i hate it so so so so so so much to lose sth i cherish.. sob.

wateva. superband tmr. =) one ting to make mi happy.

keywords.

honor roll
cert
borders.

waffles.

chain broken.
upset.
dun understand.

eyecandies.
nt mine.

rainforest.
refused.

nap.
guilty.

thermody.
sux.

tired.
mentally.

spelling list?

i guess the words aint gd.. so better left unsaid... x.x

aniwae.. a really v. short while for mi to cum online.. bfore i start to study for thermo! i hate thermody.. i hope i can pass.. hope i can.. wateva.

he lost mi twice 2dae. haix... wat can i do?

i wanted to cum online badly.. i wan to blog.. bt i left lk nth to blog.. y is dat so?

aniwae. i still dun lk tings unsaid. dunno lahx.. hate to tink so much abt it.. damn damn damn... hope dey aint hypocrite..

miss my sis.. nt real sis.. juz triplet sis.. lolx.. hope se take care` doubt she will read diz tho...

will bring zero tys tmr.. i dun care. =P refused to bring. lolx...

i wan eat waffle tmr.. or shld i eat soupy place? hmmm.. c how bahx...

eyes r such attractive places.. lolx.. most pple eyes r so charming.. =) so dey r all charmin guys... lolx..

juzt b trueful to mi.

"love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有"

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edited.

4gt to mention. i met a childish guy ytd. went to j8 watch the lake hse. nice. bt den. i rather he died. lolx.. more realistic to mi.. =P aniwae.. den aft dat went to take 88 hm.. i was standin nxt to my elder sis.. hu balancin skills really sux.. so ended up i sorta bang into da guy nxt to mi wen da car break so suddenly.. for a long long time.. lolx.. coz my sis cant find her balance.. so i cannt push her up.. -.- okiex.. so his fren act sae "kns. nv share." sth lk dat.. -.- soooooooooooo childish.. den aft dat he was leavin.. den his fren sae "wait lahx.. ltr bus brake den she can bang into u again.." sth lk dat.. -.- -.- -.- so pissed lahx... how childish can he get? omg... spoilt my day.. argh...

i lk alvin. =)

feel lk cryin. stopped myself fr doin so. wen i m watchin da clip abt nicholas.. wen watchin grey's anatomy wen da bomb troop was bombed into pieces or shld i sae ashes? wen my sis is so irritatin... wen i juz feel so helpless...

started a new set of revision.. as in doin it a totally different way.. changin my revision schedule now n den.. tryin to save myself @ da same time... studyin in sch tmr i itnk.. or goin to amk lib to study.. i dunno... muz c how first.. -.- mayb i dun even haf da mood to study...

n im nt happy i gt into honourable roll.. wateva u call it... juz nt as happy as i thot i will b.. everytime wen i m nt in da h/r.. i alwaes tell myself.. work harder... nxt time i will b dere.. now i m dere.. i act felt.. practicallly nth.. kinda i dun deserve it... AADDB3 [nt sure abt gp]... diz kinda result still can b in h/r.. -.-

i wan go out.. n kel sae she wan go out! c how it goes lahx.. tings alwaes go haywire...

i dun care she's superficial or nt.. she's juz so loving... wateva.

kinda tired. mayb i shld try n c if i m sufferrin fr insomia.. dun tink so.. bt den i dun wan to slp.. i hate dat... -.-

watchi nmovie tmr? i dunno... lalala.

my dad is gettin on my nerves... cant he juz eat da dinner?! he gt angry.. den went out to eat dinner! how much food we wasted? damn.. i shld haf reply dat so i gt my mac n he gt nth.. dat's wat he wan wat.. so he can go out n haf his dinner.. argh.. pissed...

i miss.. ah lian.. mad.. eunice.. po4.. co pple.. really do miss dem.. n da moments 2gether.. bt i m movin on.. i nid to.. dey all moved on.. u go ask dem wat's da last time dey thot of mi? haix... bt i iwll move on n enjoy my life now xpecially w diz grp of frenz i luv... it's happy to haf dem in ur class.. relaly thxful for it...

oh yarhx.. back to grey's anatomy.. i noe dat guy is goin to die.. yet wen he died.. i m so sad.. juz so so so so os oso sad... he's kinda charmin.. to mi.. i lk his eyes.. lolx... bt den.. haix.. i guess dat's pple.. noe it will b lk dat.. yet refused to believe it.. diz is part n parcel of life i guess... -.-

grow up.

movin on.. leavin u bhind.. sry.

b happy. =) luv urself.